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Sunday, December 8, 2013
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
so, i decided to work at camp
I decided to work at a Christian summer camp because I wanted to change lives, but God changed mine.
Having happened to hear about it from a friend, I had never been to Camp War Eagle before, but I decided to go ahead and apply. I filled out the application, had an interview over Skype, and so began the process of something that would change my life forever.
Before the kids ever arrived, we had Pre-orientation and Orientation (basically training sessions on how to have a blast and be safe and share the gospel with kids). After those two weeks, I felt so prepared to be a camp counselor. I also understood that, while Camp War Eagle is the best stinkin' job ever, it was also going to be difficult and exhausting and would require every ounce of strength I possessed. (And yes, it did.)
So, I show up to the first day of camp scared to death, but ready to be used by God. It's pretty scary to be completely responsible for 10-12 kids 24/7, and that's why I knew that anything good that came out of the weeks I worked at camp was going to be ALL God.
Once the front gates open and the kids start arriving, I can barely contain my excitement. With each new cabin of campers I had, I absolutely fell in love with those girls. There are some pretty awesome and fun activities to do at camp, but it's those campers, those sweet girls that make my summer so worthwhile. There's no greater feeling than knowing that you're investing your life into so many precious little children and young people.
First few days of working at camp: I was loving it. I had an awesome cabin of girls, we were having fun, things were going great.
Then I got sick.
It was pretty much miserable. My head hurt, I was exhausted, and I had no energy whatsoever. There was even one night I broke down crying because I seriously thought I couldn't do anymore. It was so frustrating not having the energy to completely focus on my campers and their needs. I mean, that's why I came to camp: to serve them, not to be drained by a stupid cold. I was also frustrated that God would let this happen to me.
But you know what? Something I saw over and over again was God's faithfulness. He always gave me just what I needed at the right time. Whether it was encouragement from a friend, a hug from one of my campers, or some rare moments of solitude. God is faithful and God is enough. "God is Enough" — that was our theme for the summer. Not only were the kids learning about God's sufficiency, but I was also learning firsthand how "God will supply all your(my) needs according to His riches in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:19).
God additionally grew me through my personal time spent in His Word. It is so challenging to find a quiet moment to spend alone with God at camp, but it's so important when He's the only one sustaining you.
As I made my way through 2 Timothy while I was there, here are a few things that stuck out to me.
Because we share the gospel at camp, I was particularly drawn to the last part of 2 Timothy 3 where Paul is talking about the role that Scripture played in young Timothy's faith. From childhood, he says that Timothy was "acquainted with the sacred writings" which are "able to make you wise for salvation through faith" (3:15). This encouraged me so much because even though none of my campers may have made a specific decision to accept Jesus' gift of salvation at camp, I have had the opportunity to share the Bible with them. It's those small seeds of Scripture that God will use and grow in those kids' lives...and someday it could lead to their saving knowledge of Christ.
My calling is simply to plant those seeds of Scripture and "preach the word," as 2 Timothy 4:2 says. "Be ready in season and out of season; reprove, rebuke, and exhort..."As God reminded me of the power of His Word, I became more intentional about using Scripture as I interacted with my campers. My words will not last when those campers go home, but the God-breathed Word of God is more than powerful enough to save—even after camp is over.
The letter continues as Paul describes how he is being "poured out as a drink offering" and how he has "fought the good fight, kept the faith, and finished the race" (4:6-7). As an exhausted camp counselor, this is exactly the kind of challenge I need to hear to keep pressing on and to completely pour myself out for my campers.
Okay. Okay. OK OK OK. Oooooooh Kaaaaaaay!
Porch Parties.
Blob.
Firework shows.
A super-cool-T-shirt.
Devos.
C. C-A. C-A-D-D-O go Caddo!
1-10.
Rainy Ultimate Solution.
Mish Mash.
Ropes course.
G-O-O-D-M-O-R-N-I-N-G good morning, good morning!
Tournament!
Opportunities!
Shark.
Constant dancing.
F.I.T
Cookie cake.
God is a nuff nuff, God is a nuff nuff.
Star cabin.
DUTY.
Eagle Tales (what what what).
Tch, tch tch!
Tribal Initiation.
Pharaoh, Pharaoh, OH baby let my people go...
You know how some of the hardest/toughest times of your life become the most memorable times of your life? That's because the moments that are most difficult are the moments you grow the most. Camp War Eagle is one of those difficult, challenging experiences that leaves you utterly spent, but abundantly rewarded. It's service, ministry, challenging, life-changing, memorable, incredible, FUN, and you get paid for it. Best job ever. Boom.
Before the kids ever arrived, we had Pre-orientation and Orientation (basically training sessions on how to have a blast and be safe and share the gospel with kids). After those two weeks, I felt so prepared to be a camp counselor. I also understood that, while Camp War Eagle is the best stinkin' job ever, it was also going to be difficult and exhausting and would require every ounce of strength I possessed. (And yes, it did.)
So, I show up to the first day of camp scared to death, but ready to be used by God. It's pretty scary to be completely responsible for 10-12 kids 24/7, and that's why I knew that anything good that came out of the weeks I worked at camp was going to be ALL God.
Once the front gates open and the kids start arriving, I can barely contain my excitement. With each new cabin of campers I had, I absolutely fell in love with those girls. There are some pretty awesome and fun activities to do at camp, but it's those campers, those sweet girls that make my summer so worthwhile. There's no greater feeling than knowing that you're investing your life into so many precious little children and young people.
First few days of working at camp: I was loving it. I had an awesome cabin of girls, we were having fun, things were going great.
Then I got sick.
It was pretty much miserable. My head hurt, I was exhausted, and I had no energy whatsoever. There was even one night I broke down crying because I seriously thought I couldn't do anymore. It was so frustrating not having the energy to completely focus on my campers and their needs. I mean, that's why I came to camp: to serve them, not to be drained by a stupid cold. I was also frustrated that God would let this happen to me.
But you know what? Something I saw over and over again was God's faithfulness. He always gave me just what I needed at the right time. Whether it was encouragement from a friend, a hug from one of my campers, or some rare moments of solitude. God is faithful and God is enough. "God is Enough" — that was our theme for the summer. Not only were the kids learning about God's sufficiency, but I was also learning firsthand how "God will supply all your(my) needs according to His riches in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:19).
God additionally grew me through my personal time spent in His Word. It is so challenging to find a quiet moment to spend alone with God at camp, but it's so important when He's the only one sustaining you.
As I made my way through 2 Timothy while I was there, here are a few things that stuck out to me.
Because we share the gospel at camp, I was particularly drawn to the last part of 2 Timothy 3 where Paul is talking about the role that Scripture played in young Timothy's faith. From childhood, he says that Timothy was "acquainted with the sacred writings" which are "able to make you wise for salvation through faith" (3:15). This encouraged me so much because even though none of my campers may have made a specific decision to accept Jesus' gift of salvation at camp, I have had the opportunity to share the Bible with them. It's those small seeds of Scripture that God will use and grow in those kids' lives...and someday it could lead to their saving knowledge of Christ.
My calling is simply to plant those seeds of Scripture and "preach the word," as 2 Timothy 4:2 says. "Be ready in season and out of season; reprove, rebuke, and exhort..."As God reminded me of the power of His Word, I became more intentional about using Scripture as I interacted with my campers. My words will not last when those campers go home, but the God-breathed Word of God is more than powerful enough to save—even after camp is over.
The letter continues as Paul describes how he is being "poured out as a drink offering" and how he has "fought the good fight, kept the faith, and finished the race" (4:6-7). As an exhausted camp counselor, this is exactly the kind of challenge I need to hear to keep pressing on and to completely pour myself out for my campers.
Okay. Okay. OK OK OK. Oooooooh Kaaaaaaay!
Porch Parties.
Blob.
Firework shows.
A super-cool-T-shirt.
Devos.
C. C-A. C-A-D-D-O go Caddo!
1-10.
Rainy Ultimate Solution.
Mish Mash.
Ropes course.
G-O-O-D-M-O-R-N-I-N-G good morning, good morning!
Tournament!
Opportunities!
Shark.
Constant dancing.
F.I.T
Cookie cake.
God is a nuff nuff, God is a nuff nuff.
Star cabin.
DUTY.
Eagle Tales (what what what).
Tch, tch tch!
Tribal Initiation.
Pharaoh, Pharaoh, OH baby let my people go...
Sunday, July 7, 2013
dealing with disappointment
I gave up my dream college.
I had searched for months after my high school graduation and finally settled on a college towards the end of the summer. I applied. I visited. I was ready to enroll. Despite the fact that it was a 15 hour drive from home, I felt like it was the perfect college for me, exactly what I was looking for.
Several weeks later, however, God opened up another college opportunity. Now I had a big decision to make: I could either choose to attend the college that my heart was set on, or I could pick the college that was I knew was a wiser choice (as far as distance and finances were concerned). The choice was mine to make. After much prayer and discussion with my family over my decision, I decided to give up my dream college and trust that God would not disappoint me for making a decision I felt best aligned with his will.
But I'll be honest—it was a tough decision that initially left me desperately disappointed. I felt like I was giving up the greatest thing in the world and that I'd never fully be satisfied with the decision I was making. (Since then God has showed me how my school fits my needs better than I could have ever imagined, and I can now say that I love my school. He is indeed faithful!)
However, I have discovered that life is full of disappointments. College, friendships, jobs, injuries, relationships, family, illnesses—there are just so many things that never work out like we want them to. "Disappointment" is a reoccurring word in my journal; I've had to deal with it often. And I hate it. It hurts, and it never makes sense.
Yet through it all, disappointment shows me how much more I need to cling to Jesus. He is the one thing that will never disappoint. Instead of wallowing in the unfairness of my dashed dreams or failed expectations, I need to let disappointments drive me to Jesus. Maybe I've been treasuring something too dearly; maybe it's God's way of bringing my attention back to him. Regardless of the circumstances, God is showing me (often very painfully) that Jesus is worth more than every disappointment life could bring my way.
Counting everything as loss for Christ's sake isn't easy, but it is worth it. He will never disappoint.
I had searched for months after my high school graduation and finally settled on a college towards the end of the summer. I applied. I visited. I was ready to enroll. Despite the fact that it was a 15 hour drive from home, I felt like it was the perfect college for me, exactly what I was looking for.
Several weeks later, however, God opened up another college opportunity. Now I had a big decision to make: I could either choose to attend the college that my heart was set on, or I could pick the college that was I knew was a wiser choice (as far as distance and finances were concerned). The choice was mine to make. After much prayer and discussion with my family over my decision, I decided to give up my dream college and trust that God would not disappoint me for making a decision I felt best aligned with his will.
But I'll be honest—it was a tough decision that initially left me desperately disappointed. I felt like I was giving up the greatest thing in the world and that I'd never fully be satisfied with the decision I was making. (Since then God has showed me how my school fits my needs better than I could have ever imagined, and I can now say that I love my school. He is indeed faithful!)
However, I have discovered that life is full of disappointments. College, friendships, jobs, injuries, relationships, family, illnesses—there are just so many things that never work out like we want them to. "Disappointment" is a reoccurring word in my journal; I've had to deal with it often. And I hate it. It hurts, and it never makes sense.
Yet through it all, disappointment shows me how much more I need to cling to Jesus. He is the one thing that will never disappoint. Instead of wallowing in the unfairness of my dashed dreams or failed expectations, I need to let disappointments drive me to Jesus. Maybe I've been treasuring something too dearly; maybe it's God's way of bringing my attention back to him. Regardless of the circumstances, God is showing me (often very painfully) that Jesus is worth more than every disappointment life could bring my way.
Counting everything as loss for Christ's sake isn't easy, but it is worth it. He will never disappoint.
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
summer lovin'
blogging
I do, in fact, love blogging; but you probably wouldn't know because I hardly do it anymore. (And I'm not even sure who "you" is supposed to be because I don't even think anyone reads this old blog anymore.) Well here's to changing my stagnant writing habits!
books
Two down...124 more to go. Oh well. Although I'll eventually have to come to grips with the fact that there doesn't appear to be any human means of me ever completing my reading list; yet, I continue to try. Most recently I have completed Cry, the Beloved Country by Alan Paton and Peace Like a River by Leif Enger.
Cry, the Beloved Country is an excellently written book, dealing with the themes of reconciliation, injustice, and the power of faith in God. I read this book because it was highly recommended to me as "a book that every Christian should read." While this is a book I certainly recommend to every Christian reader, I think I would have benefited (and enjoyed it) more had I read it in a study group or taken the time to study its powerful themes more deeply. Not my favorite book, but one that I certainly appreciated, especially for its literary value. Paton's lyrical, poetic prose is beautiful and is worth reading simply for that reason alone. It's a more challenging read, but I would agree with other literary critics that this is one of the best novels of all time.
Peace Like a River may just make it onto my list of all-time favorite novels. A richly dynamic and powerful book, Peace Like a River enthralled me with its gripping narration of the tragedies and miracles of the Land family, all the while employing lyrical imagery and captivating prose. Yes, I am envious of the way Enger can create such fresh and evocative metaphors and descriptions. Personally, I think this novel is literarily stunning. Rueben, Swede, and Mr. Land have become some of my favorite characters, so unique and fascinating! I'm very glad I got around to reading this one.
@ChristianHipster, the source of my daily laughs.
@UrbanaMissions, encouragement from the Word and excellent articles and tools for global-minded Christians.
@EricMetaxas, keeps me aware about pertinent issues regarding human trafficking, abortion, and politics.
camp war eagle
That's right. I'm working as a counselor there this year, and it's a blast. I'm so excited to see what God does through camp and how he works in the lives of the kids there! It is seriously crazy that I get paid to have so much fun and have such an incredible impact on the lives of kids. Loving kids and loving God. Can't get much better than that.
nike shorts
I love 'em, I wear them all the time. Especially since I've started running quite a bit... they are my favorite kind of running shorts. Well, can I help that they're so cute???
food
This guacamole!!!
And maybe some cauliflower poppers.
Not to mention this granola.
And this Monterey Chicken that I haven't made yet, but am going to soon.
And just because it's WRONG to forget dessert, cinnamon roll cake.
music
"Look So Easy" - Dave Barns
"Blood and Bones" - Elenowen
"Welcome Home" - Dutton
"Half of my Heart" - John Mayer
"Army of Two" Olly Murs
"Let Go" - Safetysuit
"Start Over" - The Afters
"Between the Raindrops" - Lifehouse
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
meet my school
Hey seniors and college-searchers—you should check out one of my favorite places on earth! Yep. I've nearly finished one year here, and I've fallen in love with this place.
I love OKWU's commitment to Truth and Scripture, practiced not only in the classroom but also as a way of life. I have grown so much and have been so encouraged by the Christ-centered community and friendships here on campus. And—I kid you not—after one year I know practically everyone here! I can honestly say that I could name every person in this video right here!!! Watch it:
(No biggie, but if you pause at 0:54, I'm the girl sitting in the library.)
What can I say? I love my school. =)
www.okwu.edu
I love OKWU's commitment to Truth and Scripture, practiced not only in the classroom but also as a way of life. I have grown so much and have been so encouraged by the Christ-centered community and friendships here on campus. And—I kid you not—after one year I know practically everyone here! I can honestly say that I could name every person in this video right here!!! Watch it:
(No biggie, but if you pause at 0:54, I'm the girl sitting in the library.)
What can I say? I love my school. =)
www.okwu.edu
Monday, March 18, 2013
twelve years
Twelve years ago, God made me his child and a co-heir with Christ. Twelve years ago, I was rescued from darkness to marvelous light. Twelve years ago, Christ's righteousness was imputed to me and I was justified in God's sight. For twelve years, God has been faithful and faithful again.
Thank you, Lord.
You never change
You're still the same
You are the Everlasting God
You will remain
After the day is gone
And the things of earth have passed
Everlasting God
Thank you, Lord.
Friday, February 15, 2013
solitude
In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that you are God
In the secret of your presence
I know there I am restored
The never ending cycle of going, doing, rushing, serving, being, working, giving....
And I like it.
I like having activities to be involved in, places to be, things to do. There's a sense in which I enjoy being busy. Yes, I usually bite off more than I can chew, and I usually end up a little overwhelmed; but there's a part of me that drives me to do as much as I can with the time that I have.
While making the most of my time is a worthy ambition, I sometimes forget that I was not made only for putting forth and giving out. I am a finite creature, and I was made to need rest. (It's just another way of God reminding us that we can't do it on our own. We need him.)
But in my constantly filled schedule and busy life, I don't have "time" to take a break. Sometimes, I don't even think I need it. I get so caught up in doing, doing, doing, that I don't even have a chance to realize that I'm tired, that I don't have anything left in me to give. Of course, I "know" I'm supposed to set aside a little time for God's Word and prayer; but when I did, it was a little rushed as well... just like the rest of my life.
Until I was required to slow down.
It was an assignment: I had to spend 30 minutes in solitude without any distractions or technology. Complete solitude, where I would not be interrupted. The goal was to learn the spiritual "discipline" of solitude, setting aside a certain amount of time to be silent before God, listen to him, reflect on his word, meditate, pray, even journal. This was more than just having a devotion in the mornings. This was practicing solitude.
Oddly enough, it was actually hard for me to find time for me to spend a complete 30 minutes in absolute solitude. It started out great as I calmed my mind and got my heart right before the Lord. I began praying about several thing that were on my heart, and then I read a Psalm. But as I sat there, knowing I could not do anything else for 30 minutes, I had no choice but to look deeper into my soul. I discovered something that I had never taken the time to discover before. There were things I didn't even realize were weighing me down, things I was anxious about, burdens I had not surrendered.
In that moment, a flood a emotions came over me that I had not slowed down enough to realize were even there. As the tears streamed down, I was brought to the utter realization that I desperately needed God. I was trying to do so much on my own, and I was worn down. I was worried. And I was too busy to know it. But as God brought me to see my need to completely rely on his strength, I felt a refreshing peace as my anxieties and burdens were lifted.
Solitude is different than loneliness. In loneliness, we feel isolated—even in crowds. In solitude, we feel communion—even in seclusion. God meets us in the places where we take the time to "be still and know that he is God." The goal of solitude is not to "be emptied" or discover our "authentic self," like in Eastern meditation. The goal is to be filled with God's Spirit and to conform our authentic self into Christ's likeness.
I needed to be humbled that day. It's often the times when I think I have it all together that I actually need God the most. In solitude, I came face to face with the presence of God; and he restored me.
"The great danger is not that we will renounce our faith. It is that we will become so rushed and preoccupied that we settle for a mediocre version of it." – John Ortberg
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
54,559,615
Yesterday we celebrated that all men were created equal on Martin Luther King Jr. Day.
Today is the anniversary of Roe vs. Wade where the rights of the unborn have been stripped away.
54,559,615. That is the sickening number of estimated abortions since the Roe vs. Wade Supreme Court decision in 1973 (lifesitenews.com). Take time to let that number sink in. That's over 3,000 abortions per day, nearly 137 dead per hour, or one baby dead every thirty seconds. According to this article on breitbart.com, Planned Parenthood released that 333,964 babies were aborted in 2011 alone (and they're making big bucks on it too).
Be Informed
This "abortion counter" is an interesting website that clocks the estimated number of abortions based on statistics-- in the U.S., worldwide, by Planned Parenthood, today, and even more.
R.C. Sproul's Abortion is available for free on Kindle.
9 Things You Should Know About Roe vs. Wade
Is the Pro-Life Cause Winning?
Get Involved
I've had several friends who have been to the Justice for All training "camp" in Texas. They told me all about how after the training they would set up booths on college campuses with graphic pictures about the reality of abortion. From the JFA website:
Training continues on a public university campus where JFA, at the invitation of a campus club, uses one or more of its visual tools to create a debate about abortion on campus. These tools include a museum-quality exhibit that’s two stories high, an 8-foot version of the same exhibit, free speech boards, and poll tables (“Should Abortion Remain Legal?”). As seminar participants, you become volunteers at the outreach, and you have one job: Turn the debate about abortion into a dialogue.My friends told me so many stories about the people they were able to talk to, how so many students changed their minds about the Bible, and (even more importantly) how they were able to share the gospel throughout their conversations!
Sign up for their newsletter, find a date when you can attend the training, and go to the website to browse their videos.
Also, you can share the 180 Video with your friends:
Friday, January 4, 2013
expectantly
One thing I've definitely learned this past year is that life is full of disappointments. No matter how hard I try not to, I will always have expectations and make assumptions that are incorrect. Consequently, there will always be those things which I eagerly anticipate, yet in reality they just turn out to disappoint me. As wonderful as high expectations are, I've come to realize that they won't always be met.
Sometimes, I have high expectations for myself.
I expect to get good grades, to get along with those around me, to get in better shape, to prioritize my schedule, to succeed in things I attempt, to be a good friend, to make the right decisions, to respect my parents, to be bold and courageous, to encourage those around me, to grow in my relationship with God and to faithfully follow Christ. But frankly, I fall short of my expectations. Often. I get frustrated when I fail and discouraged when my good intentions fall through. Sometimes, I disappoint myself.
Sometimes, I have high expectations for others.
I expect others to be considerate, to be friendly, to understand my feelings, to show compassion, to include others in their activities, to give their best effort, to be honest, and to be faithful and keep their promises. Unfortunately, people fall short of my expectations too. People are sinners just like I am. Because no one is perfect, including myself, sometimes people disappoint me.
In a world where people fail me or betray me, and where my shortcomings consistently disappoint me, it's easy to lower my expectations and let my standards down. It's safer to expect less when expecting more means risking the chance of disappointment.
But unlike imperfect human beings who constantly fail and fall short, God never falls short; in fact, he consistently exceeds any expectations we could ever have for him! In the midst of my failings and disappointments, Ephesians 3:20-21 is full of hope and anticipation: "him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen." God is faithful, he does not fail. We should never put limitations on what God can do. God desires to magnify himself and glorify his name, and he will always succeed in what he does. Although we may not always know God's purpose or intentions, we can always expect that they are greater than we could ever ask for or imagine!
Always, we should expect great things of God.
This new year, 2013, you and I both have goals, expectations for what this year holds and what it will be like. While there are sure to be joys and successes, there are certain to be disappointments as well. However, no matter the circumstances, no matter the situation, let's make this a year where we expect great things of God. Let's not put limits on what he can do in our lives and in the lives around us. God doesn't always move like we expect him to, but he certainly never disappoints. Don't you think he would delight in doing far more abundantly than anything we could ask or think this year?!
A new season, a new year, and a faithful God.
Lord, we wait expectantly.
Friday, December 7, 2012
life is an adventure
I've always been one of those daydreamers. As a kid, my head was constantly constructing thrilling plots and stories for the dozens of adventure novels I planned to write. (It hasn't happened yet.) In my head, I always imagined myself as one of the characters in the heat of the perilous action, living a life full of heroism and excitement.
Although much has changed since my adventure novel aspirations, I still find myself drawn to the idea of adventure. In a way, I think we all dream of getting caught up in some grand scheme that's bigger than ourselves. There's a little part in all of us that wants to be part of all the action and suspense. And though my life may never have as much action as an Indiana Jones film, it is definitely full of adventure.
When I look ahead in life, all I see is an unclear future and one great mystery of a story. But when I look back on where I've been, I see all the twists and turns that God has brought me through and think, Wow! I never dreamed it would ever have turned out this way! In the midst of the journey it sure was tough, but it was always exciting. During the times that were most difficult in my life, God's faithfulness has always appeared more clearly.
With God, life is one big adventure.
With God, you don't have to take life so seriously. Sure, there's guaranteed to be be plenty of twists and turns in the future, and maybe some disappointments and heartaches; but instead of freaking out when something doesn't go like you planned it or worrying about an uncertain situation, remember that it is just another part of God's great story. He just wants you to trust him--he's up to something incredible. Face the future like the adventure it is.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
a beautiful paradox
In the quiet stillness of the sunlit room, alone, I sat listening as the breeze rattled the last leaves on the trees. Tucked away in my bright, sunny, secluded room, I came to think and reflect. In the tranquil atmosphere, I could not help but pause and ponder the text I had just read.
Trying to picture myself in the cell of this man, I searched for something deep inside of me that would enable me to endure fourteen years of imprisonment under the Communists. How long would I be willing to suffer for Christ? My spirit was overwhelmed with the account of horrendous tortures, horrific abuse, and anguishing pain. But there was something much deeper and greater that my soul felt.
There was something beautiful.
Amidst the persecution, there was love. Through the loss, there was unfading hope. In the midst of suffering, there was self-sacrifice. This story about a man who suffered for Christ, who prayed for his torturers, and who never ceased praised God that he was counted worthy to suffer—this life radiated with a beauty beyond anything any earthly eye could behold. The courage, the faithfulness, the unconditional love; this is a beauty the world is not worthy of knowing.
There is something overwhelming beautiful about self-sacrifice and loss for something, someone greater. It doesn't make sense to earthly logic, but it is transcendentally beautiful.
exultation through humility
strength through weakness
freedom through serving
gaining through losing
living through dying
Perhaps true beauty is a paradox, like many other aspects of the Christian life. So, in the quiet stillness of that windowed room, I prayed that my life might be a beautiful paradox, too.
The book referenced to is Tortured for Christ by Richard Wurmbrand.
Trying to picture myself in the cell of this man, I searched for something deep inside of me that would enable me to endure fourteen years of imprisonment under the Communists. How long would I be willing to suffer for Christ? My spirit was overwhelmed with the account of horrendous tortures, horrific abuse, and anguishing pain. But there was something much deeper and greater that my soul felt.
There was something beautiful.
Amidst the persecution, there was love. Through the loss, there was unfading hope. In the midst of suffering, there was self-sacrifice. This story about a man who suffered for Christ, who prayed for his torturers, and who never ceased praised God that he was counted worthy to suffer—this life radiated with a beauty beyond anything any earthly eye could behold. The courage, the faithfulness, the unconditional love; this is a beauty the world is not worthy of knowing.
There is something overwhelming beautiful about self-sacrifice and loss for something, someone greater. It doesn't make sense to earthly logic, but it is transcendentally beautiful.
exultation through humility
strength through weakness
freedom through serving
gaining through losing
living through dying
Perhaps true beauty is a paradox, like many other aspects of the Christian life. So, in the quiet stillness of that windowed room, I prayed that my life might be a beautiful paradox, too.
The book referenced to is Tortured for Christ by Richard Wurmbrand.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
what is education?
To you, the student:
Maybe you feel like you're running an obstacle course. You probably spend the majority of your morning and afternoon hours sitting in classes, listening to lectures, and doing homework. (Or if you're homeschooled, just doing homework.) You must learn the facts, memorize the equations, and write the papers. With every assignment, you dutifully complete it—or at least do as little as you can get away with—in order to gain the tools you will someday need to make a living. For now, you are just enduring school, every requirement bringing you ever closer to that glorious end: graduation. Whether your educational journey ends with your high school diploma or your college diploma, you are most certainly anticipating the day when you will "arrive" and receive the certification declaring that you have successfully jumped through all the necessary hoops. You have been adequately prepared for the "real world." Congratulations! You've done it. You have successfully completed your education.
Maybe you feel like you're running an obstacle course. You probably spend the majority of your morning and afternoon hours sitting in classes, listening to lectures, and doing homework. (Or if you're homeschooled, just doing homework.) You must learn the facts, memorize the equations, and write the papers. With every assignment, you dutifully complete it—or at least do as little as you can get away with—in order to gain the tools you will someday need to make a living. For now, you are just enduring school, every requirement bringing you ever closer to that glorious end: graduation. Whether your educational journey ends with your high school diploma or your college diploma, you are most certainly anticipating the day when you will "arrive" and receive the certification declaring that you have successfully jumped through all the necessary hoops. You have been adequately prepared for the "real world." Congratulations! You've done it. You have successfully completed your education.
Or have you?
It is a common assumption to view education as means to an end. It is something you must begin in order to bring about a desired cause (in which case you will have reached the end). However, contrary to popular belief, this is not what education is—at least, education according to the Bible.
The Biblical view says that we never "arrive." The process of becoming Christ-like is on-going and constant. We must take up our cross daily (Luke 9:23), continually die to ourselves (2 Corinthians 4:11), and always be being transformed by the renewing of our minds (Romans 12:2). While we certainly do have the hope of heaven, there is no "finish line" for the Christian. In the same way, education does not have a "finish line," but rather education is an end in itself....
As a Christian, it doesn't matter what you do—whether you're an engineer, an actor, a musician, a construction worker, or a preacher. Everything you do is sacred. There is no distinction between sacred and secular in the Christian life. The same goes for education. We are called to be in a constant accumulation of understanding, both in our view of God and our view of the world. With God, education is more than just a "coupon for life" that you redeem for a job in the "real world." Education's purpose reaches far beyond passing a test to the entirely more magnificent end of glorifying God with our minds.
Maybe you're still in school; or maybe you've already graduated. Maybe you're already retired! Whatever the case, you are still called to be a hard thinker for Christ. The Bible commands us to love God with everything, including our minds (Matthew 22:37). If we adopt the mindset that education more than mere knowledge or a ticket to the work force, then we will begin the journey of perpetual learning for the glory of God.
We want to think big thoughts about God. We want to develop our God-given skills. We want to work hard to strengthen our weaknesses. We want to think critically, and all for the Lord Jesus Christ! So let us not view school as an obstacle course, dodging our way around hurtles and doing our best to just get by. And while it is absolutely fine to look forward to graduation, let's not assume that our education will then be complete. Though we will never "arrive" or be complete in this life, we have a goal we're aiming for in everything we do: the glory of God. As you finish out this school year, keep in mind what Paul says in 2 Corinthians 10:5:
"We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ."
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Monday, September 17, 2012
college life
I live in a ten foot square room that's infested with crickets.
But, on the bright side, the campus is beautiful. Here's a shot I got one glorious evening:
When the classrooms are about 60 degrees but outside it's about 100 degrees, it's difficult to know how to dress for the day.
It's not as hard academically as I thought it would be. But then again, I'm taking all basic Gen.-eds. Since I don't have many of my core classes yet, I probably have my more challenging courses to look forward to. Yippee.
I've discovered that you can be surrounded by friends and still feel really lonely. The hardest part of college is giving friendship time to develop deeply. Slowly but surely things are getting better. But through this process of making completely new relationships, my relationship with God has deepened considerably. He remains faithful when everything around me changes!
The rate at which freshman couples are formed is astounding.
Potatoes. Pasta. Fried food. Carbs galore. That's what the cafeteria food basically consists of. Praise Jesus for salad and cereal because that's what I'm surviving on!
I didn't know this before, but the way I alleviate stress is through the piano. I'm discovering so much about myself here!
There's only about 500 students on campus here, and I love it. I've gotten to the point where I recognize almost everyone here. We're like one huge family here. It's awesome.
That's it for now!
But, on the bright side, the campus is beautiful. Here's a shot I got one glorious evening:
When the classrooms are about 60 degrees but outside it's about 100 degrees, it's difficult to know how to dress for the day.
It's not as hard academically as I thought it would be. But then again, I'm taking all basic Gen.-eds. Since I don't have many of my core classes yet, I probably have my more challenging courses to look forward to. Yippee.
I've discovered that you can be surrounded by friends and still feel really lonely. The hardest part of college is giving friendship time to develop deeply. Slowly but surely things are getting better. But through this process of making completely new relationships, my relationship with God has deepened considerably. He remains faithful when everything around me changes!
The rate at which freshman couples are formed is astounding.
Potatoes. Pasta. Fried food. Carbs galore. That's what the cafeteria food basically consists of. Praise Jesus for salad and cereal because that's what I'm surviving on!
I didn't know this before, but the way I alleviate stress is through the piano. I'm discovering so much about myself here!
There's only about 500 students on campus here, and I love it. I've gotten to the point where I recognize almost everyone here. We're like one huge family here. It's awesome.
That's it for now!
Monday, July 23, 2012
Link Up! 07/22/12
11 Incredible Customer Service Stories - Surely there is a lesson for the church in all this.
Why Bees Die After Stinging - This is an incredible photo!
How many legos would it take to build your house?
Matt Redman and LZ7 - Twenty Seven Million - Wow, this song is incredible.
Stars and Whales - Yeah, this gave me goosebumps too. Listen and stand in awe of our Maker.
If snack labels told the truth... - As someone who actually does read food labels, I got a kick out of this!
10 Tips on Solving Mysterious Bible Passages from Sherlock Holmes
The Supreme Court Ruling on Obamacare - This is a bit late, but it really helped me understand what's going on and what it means.
Oh, and this worship music from Mars Hill Church is pretty great too! (Number 4 might be my favorite.)
Why Bees Die After Stinging - This is an incredible photo!
How many legos would it take to build your house?
Matt Redman and LZ7 - Twenty Seven Million - Wow, this song is incredible.
Stars and Whales - Yeah, this gave me goosebumps too. Listen and stand in awe of our Maker.
If snack labels told the truth... - As someone who actually does read food labels, I got a kick out of this!
10 Tips on Solving Mysterious Bible Passages from Sherlock Holmes
The Supreme Court Ruling on Obamacare - This is a bit late, but it really helped me understand what's going on and what it means.
Oh, and this worship music from Mars Hill Church is pretty great too! (Number 4 might be my favorite.)
Sunday, July 22, 2012
the story continues
Head's up: I. Am. A. College. Freshman.
Just getting here was one of the craziest journeys I've ever had.
It was stressful, confusing, emotional, disappointing; but most of all it was one big adventure with God. I still don't know why God gave me such a crazy year of finding a college, but God was faithful through it all. (On that note, if you ever find yourself stressing over a college decision in the future, I'd LOVE to talk to you. I know exactly what it's like, so I'd love to talk to anyone who is going through the same thing I did.)
So, as I embark on this new unfolding chapter of my life, I anticipate a change in my schedule, my responsibilities, my time, and basically my life. In other words,
Head's up: My blog posts have a very probable potential of being few and far between in the future.
Obviously, I don't know exactly what my schedule will be like this coming year. But I do know that I will have many more responsibilities, AND I know that blogging will (unfortunately) not be on the top of that list. Although I dearly hope to continue writing here when I can, there may not be much of it from here on out.
With that said, I'd like to hear from some of YOU! Since I won't have much of a chance to do a lot of blog interactivity now, I'd like to take the chance (while I can) and hear from some of my readers!
Ready?
1} The summer is often the time we do service projects, outreach, missions trips, leadership camps, and so on. What did you do this summer and how did you see God work in your life through that?
2} What song or songs do you currently have on "replay"?
3} Out of all the posts you've ever written, do you have a favorite? Please share!
(In case you were wondering, this is my favorite!)
4} I'm a quote-y person. :) Any inspiring quotes you'd like to share?
5} If you could travel in time, what time period would you travel to, and why?
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
another declaration of independence
236 years ago, 56 bold men signed their names to a document that would forever change the course of history. As the citizens of the United States remember how by the Declaration of Independence we became a free nation, let us also reflect on another Declaration of Independence: the one that bought us from bondage into liberty, was purchased by a cross, and was signed by the blood of Christ.
Happy Independence Day!
For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.
For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.
Galatians 5:1
Saturday, June 30, 2012
a small snippet
This is just a glimpse of what I took away from Worldview Academy....
- Engaging the culture is more than just having intellectual conversations, it's about loving others.
- I often assume that people aren't interested in spiritual things. But they are; and if Christians don't engage them, they will be taken captive by the world's spiritual ideas.
- What you fear is what you will worship.
- Courage is fear in it's proper perspective: fearing God more than men.
- I should never accept the label "rebel," because I am always under the authority of God.
- Truth is Truth, regardless of how one perceives it.
- The five pillars of leadership are meekness, integrity, vision, attitude, and empowerment.
- We do not argue anyone into the kingdom, but we are called to give a defense of our faith.
- The gospel is a conversation, not a presentation.
- Jesus wasn't "nice," but He was truthful and loving.
- I have more influence on people than I ever imagined.
- I can turn what is common in culture into pulpits to proclaim Truth.
- Movies are the teaching tools of our culture.
- God did not invent relationships; He IS relationships. So when we cultivate a relationship with God, we are joining Him in who He is.
- I do not think critically enough.
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
is there a storm coming on?
...Cuz I'm hearing some THUNDER!
I'm from Oklahoma, so of course I'm rooting for the OKC Thunder in the NBA finals tonight. :) :)
I'm from Oklahoma, so of course I'm rooting for the OKC Thunder in the NBA finals tonight. :) :)
Sunday, June 3, 2012
currently
You know those moments when your heart is so full that you don't have the capacity to express it in writing (much less the time to do so)? Well, I'm having one of those moments. Of course, it's wonderful to have God doing so much in my life! But I shall spare you the plethora of deep, lengthy posts, and give you a few snippets into the life of yours truly. =) And as always, I'd love to hear about all the goings-on in your lives as well!
So then, I am....
...constantly being amazed by an amazing God...
...processing all that I learned at TeenPact National Convention 2012...
...learning more of what it means to treasure Christ...
...freaking out/getting excited that I will be in college in, like, 11 weeks! Cra-zy...
...loving all the travelling I've been doing...
...writing lots of graduation thank you notes...
...trying to find time to read the mountain of books I optimistically started...
...preparing for an INCREDIBLE week at Worldview Academy (coming up SOON)....
So then, I am....
...constantly being amazed by an amazing God...
...processing all that I learned at TeenPact National Convention 2012...
...learning more of what it means to treasure Christ...
...freaking out/getting excited that I will be in college in, like, 11 weeks! Cra-zy...
...loving all the travelling I've been doing...
...writing lots of graduation thank you notes...
...trying to find time to read the mountain of books I optimistically started...
...preparing for an INCREDIBLE week at Worldview Academy (coming up SOON)....
So, what's up with you?
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Wednesday, May 30, 2012
just imagine
if, with your humanly imperfect heart, something deep inside of you longs to worship the infinite, almighty God....
if worshiping in the midst of a mere five hundred other people causes your soul to resound with excitement and delight in the Savior of the universe....
if your heart, incapable of praising and loving God to the fullest extent, finds joy and satisfaction in His presence....
if our earthly melodies, limited by the notes, pitches, and tones of this world, inspire your soul to the highest worship of the Creator....
if our words, wholly inadequate to magnify and glorify the Great I AM and God of the universe, are what we use to give Him praise....
if our worship in this life defines some of the most wonderful and glorious moments of our lives....
then just imagine
what worship will be like
in heaven.
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